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"As I walk through the darkness"

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Marilize De Clercq had a beautiful pregnancy. A nursery ready. A daughter named Gia - meaning gracious gift. She was days away from meeting her.

This is a story about stillbirth, grief, faith, and what it means to walk through darkness without staying there.
Chapters
  • 00:00 Intro: Today's story belongs to Marilize
  • 03:55 Meeting Chris and parenthood dreams
  • 06:20 Cherished moments and biblical reflections
  • 11:50 Mourning in isolation
  • 13:11 Moving forward after loss
  • 16:46 Acceptance and trusting God's timing
  • 18:02 Keeping faith and identity
  • 20:22 Embracing joy after grief
19 May English South Africa Documentary · Personal Journals

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